Day 2

I didn't write yesterday. I had a really bad headache all day and when I got home I popped in a movie and went into a trance. Watched "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button"... bizarre and long movie. I don't know if I even liked it. The whole movie was weird, kinda freaked me out a little bit. lol

Anyways yesterday was a shitty diet day. I figured since it's only Day 2 I wouldn't have a problem and I would still be all excited about trying to lose weight but boy was I wrong. It started off bad. Woke up around 5am starving so I ate 5 SnackWell Creme cookies. Then I went back to bed. Had cereal (cheerios), no milk just dry around 10. For lunch I did excellent. It was Day 1 of bringing a homemade salad to work with me and it was delicious! YUM. Starving towards the afternoon so I had a snack of crackers with Peanut Butter and Honey and 14 Triscuits. I got home from work absolutely starving! I had microwaveable "pin wheels" and cheese. It wasn't a fat free meal so I kinda sucked at that. Then at night Brian make oatmeal chocolate chip cookies so I ate like 6 of those and a few more SnackWell cookies. And I only drank one bottle of water the whole day. No soda or juice or anything else though. Day 2 SUCKED!

This is really really hard for me. I so desperately want to lose the weight but I'm so bad at diet and exercise. I think about foot and my weight 24/7. Sometimes I feel like I have an eating disorder (I know I don't though) because all I think about is food food food and gaining weight weight weight. Its starting to take over all my thoughts. Argh I'm taking it one day at a time and hopefully things will start getting easier.

Day 1

What a day!! I hate dieting!!! Day 1 is done and over with... I made it through but it was difficult! I have a headache now and I'm very hungry. I'm snacking on a few SnackWells Creme Sandwich cookies and then that will be it for the night.

One thing I learned today was if I take very small bites and eat slowly I will fill up quicker and eat less. The morning was easy. I had crackers and peanut butter for breakfast (I know not exactly a good breakfast but its what I was in the mood for). I had a Subway turkey wrap for lunch. The afternoon and evening was the hardest!! I was so hungry for most of the afternoon and I wanted to snack on junk food. For an afternoon snack I again had peanut butter and crackers. I was at work and all I had was PB and crackers so thats what I ate. After work I went to Stop & Shop. I bought a couple healthy snack options such as apples, grapes, veggies and fat free ranch dressing. I also bought lettuce and all the makings for a salad. I plan on making a salad and bringing it to work for lunch tomorrow. I also bought fat free Italian dressing.

I was planning on coming home tonight after work and doing Day 1 of the 30 Day Shred. But my Dad called and asked if I would come over and help him clean out some of the things in my Mom's craft room. So I did that and its now 8 and I just got home. I'm watching House now and snacking on my SnackWell cookies but afterwards I plan on doing some form of exercise. I will probably walk on the treadmill for a half hour.

According to RevolutionHealth.com for my height, weight and age I should consume 2167 calories daily. That seems like an awful lot to me so I plan on trying to stick between 1300 and 1400 daily. I find it's difficult for me to track my calories unless it's a prepacked food because I don't know how many calories so and so contains. I know I can look it up online and do research but to be completely honest that seems like too much work for me. I'm trying though keep track of my calories.

Here's what I ate today:
10:15 - 4 Cambridge Peanut Butter Cheese crackers 130 Calories
1 16.9 fl. oz. bottle of water
12:15 - Subway turkey wrap with lettuce, cucumbers and oil/vinegar 280 Calories
1:00 - 1 Arcor Menta Chocolate candy 75 Calories
2:00 - 1 Wrigley's Doublemint gum stick 10 Calories
1 16.9 fl. oz. bottle of water
3:54 - 4 Cambridge Peanut Butter Cheese crackers 130 Calories
5:45 - Salad (just lettuce, cucumbers and carrots) with low fat Italian Dressing 85 Calories (according to sparkpeople.com)
1 16.9 fl. oz. bottle of water
6:30 - About 10 Reduced Fat Triscuits 140 Calories
8:00 - 5 SnackWells Creme Sandwich Cookies 275 Calories

Total Calories: 1125

About Me!

Hi Everyone!!

My name is Amanda! I'm 24 years old and live in a small town in Connecticut. I work full time for a recycling company as their scale operator and go to school part time at night. I'm into music, movies, shopping, volunteering, decorating my apartment and the paranormal. Yep, doesn't seem like something I would be into but I'm very intrigued by the paranormal and I enjoy doing investigations whenever I have time.

I'm starting this blog as a way to help me lose weight. I use to be a "skinny minnie" but as I'm getting older I'm realizing I can't eat all the junk food I use too without gaining a million and one pounds. In the past year I've gained a little over 30 pounds and I'm looking to lose it all and get back into my bikini body. I eat crap all day long!! Candy, chips and snack foods top my list of favs. Oh and I'm addicted to soda. I pretty much drink soda all day long. I wake up and have a can a soda and before going to sleep I usually watch tv and drink a can of soda. Granted since January I have cut down to only drinking diet soda but I would like to cut out soda entirely. I would like to add more vegetables and white meats into my diet. I would like to eat salads more often and with light Italian dressing rather then extra Ranch dressing. I plan on only drinking water and hot tea (black, no sugar).

Exercise is difficult for me. I'm LAZY! I would much rather lay on the couch watching tv, surfing the net and looking at my treadmill then actually walking or running on that treadmill. I have bought endless workout videos. Yoga videos, dance videos, cardio videos, weight training videos. You name it, I probably have it. I think in the past 4 months I've done a workout video maybe 4 times. Yea lame! I know!! A few months ago I bought Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred. It's still in the plastic wrapper. I will open it soon!! I've heard from countless girls that it does wonders!! I will start that workout tomorrow! Eventually when I get into a little better shape I will start going to the gym. I can't go to the gym now because I'm too embarassed by my shape to actually be a hot sweaty mess infront of everyone.

I use to have very high self esteem. Even a little cocky at times. Now I have no self confidence. I don't fell hot or sexy anymore. I feel like a beached whale. I won't even post pictures of myself now because I hate how I look!! I'm most self conscious about my tummy! I use to have a nice flat belly but now I have a major muffin top! Eiw!! I'm also conscious of my face, thighs and butt. Oh and how can I forget.... my boobs. I was always a nice comfortable 34b... not too big but not too small either. Well recently I have acquired HUGE boobs... like 36d's and I HATE them!! Geez when I had smaller boobs I wanted big ones but now that God has graced me with big knockers I want nothing more then my small boobs back!

I have no real weight loss goals. I would like to get back to my old size. When I'm dieting and I come to a weight/size I like I will stop and start maintaining my weight then.

It's Sunday night now. I plan on starting my shape up challenge first thing tomorrow morning. I'll keep you posted!

You Know You Love Me

XoXo

A

Current Weight: 157.2 lbs.